Diet decent but need to get back to the gym

I have improved my diet since Easter (slowly). I'm a bit disappointed in myself this week but I am slowly getting back on track. It is hard to wake up early to get to the gym! wow. I still need to make this routine as some mornings I just don't want to wake up. I think mostly due to getting the kids to bed by 10-11pm and then having to fit in time with my wife, for myself and sleep all in the next 7 hours. tough.

The guilt is setting in

Sorry for not posting for a few days. no followers on this blog yet anyway. It is Monday morning. It was this past Sat before my legs didn't hurt anymore from the previous Tues night's squats.

So, I blew the diet and exercise this weekend pretty bad. I didn't get to the gym Friday morning or at all Sat or Sun. Sunday was Easter and the family got together and in typical fashion ate a lot. Ham, candy, yams, peeps, potato salad. tasted great, more filling. The experience of slipping on exercise and diet this weekend woke me up. I feel a bit run down this morning. I feel better if I swim in the morning and not eat as much. Hello! duh! Back to work this week.

It might be my negative side coming through but it occurred to me on my commute this morning that maybe no one thinks I can actually run a half marathon by this October (my mother excepted. She has been a wonderful source of support this past week). Of course no one cares about it as much as I do but still. Except for my mom, I haven't had one person ask me how it is going so far. Maybe everyone just wants to smile, have a few words of encouragement when I first sent an email I was going to do this, but deep down thinks it is like the small 100 lb kid trying to make the varsity football team or something. They are being polite but don't really think this will happen. After falling off both diet and exercise this weekend I couldn't blame them for thinking that because maybe deep down I started thinking that myself. Well, I am going to prove them and myself wrong! Enough of this self loathing crap! I ate too much Easter chocolate last night and felt crappy this morning. I didn't like it. Enough.

Last week Mon-Thurs I did great with diet and exercise. I can keep it up, I know I can. I've been complaining about others not seeming to care but in reality they all have their own lives to worry about, not mine. I need to do this for myself and I will! Some people may be able to easily run a half marathon or even a full marathon but for me this a huge hurdle and something I am scared of. I have to conquer my fears.

I had trail mix and an apple for breakfast this morning. I didn't make it to the gym this morning but I am going to find some type of exercise to do before I go to bed tonight. It may be the gym, it might be more squats at home (less weight and reps this time) or a combination with a brisk walk involved. Something! Any of you out there doubting that I can pull this off, I understand completely why you would have doubts but I am going to do this.

I had surgery on my right foot several years ago for plantar fasciitis. Ever since then my right foot has been slightly larger than my left making finding shoes that fit well on both feet difficult. Also, since the surgery my right foot gets sore quickly when exercising. I am willing to fight through the pain of running with my foot problem as long as it doesn't get so bad I just can't keep going. I don't think that is going to happen and I am not using it as an excuse but it is the only thing I can think of that would cause me to miss this goal. Maybe running will make my right foot better over the long run. That is my hope.

Third day / fourth day

My legs are still hurting this morning (Thurs) from doing squats Tuesday evening. Maybe I over did it with the squats or maybe my legs just need to get used to it. Either way I'm going to stretch more next time and try to do just the right amount.

Made it back to the pool Thursday morning. I swam 1050 yards this morning. So 50 more yards than yesterday. I'm going to try and add 50 yards each time I swim until I reach 2000 and then go from there. Swimming felt great this morning. I am keeping up with having 1 or 2 pieces of fruit in the mornings along with some caffeine and then something like a powerbar mid morning to hold me over til lunch. I am starting to eat more raw vegetables too. Had some celery and carrots last night along with a great salad. I brought a good mix of broccoli, carrots and other vegis for lunch today.

It may rain this afternoon but if it doesn't I plan on a nice 30 min brisk walk during lunch. Maybe that will help my legs feel better.

The road is long but so far so good. I plan on actually starting to run in about 2 weeks.